Hi, hey, hello there!
Because you're reading this, you might have at least some interest in the topics mentioned in the title, so I'll put a subheader before every topic I'm going to address, so that they're easier to find. Subjects are going to be in the same order as in the title.
Life updates
(Art block, DeviantArt inactivity, stuff)
Where do I begin? I feel so bad about being so inactive here. Today I submitted one artwork, but before that my last submission was in October, and before that, August. I feel like I should be more active, and submit at least weekly something. I would love to make art and submit it here regularly, but if I draw, paint or create something, it's probably for a school project, which is not very inspiring nor do I like the outcome of most of those works.
I'm struggling with a quite major art block, tiredness and bad thoughts about everything. It's not too serious, I'm mostly fine (my mental health concerning me as a person is just fine). I'm just very tired. But when it comes to art... Oooh well. I feel like everything I draw is utter shit. I might be okay with a drawing for a little time, but after even a few hours, I already hate the piece.
As a graphic design student, drawing is not that important. I manage to do my homework (if I'm not procrastinating too much - but that's a different story), because we've only done some book covers, posters, animation sketches (very rough), basic designing stuff, things that don't necessarily require any drawing. And that's fine. But I feel like every last inch of inspiration and passion for art has been sucked out of me. I don't feel good about it anymore.
So, that's mostly the reason I haven't been on DeviantArt very actively for the past half a year.
I also might have a little problem of comparing myself to other people, which is something you should never ever, in any kind of form, ever do. But even when I know and preach that, I'm still doing it. Why? I don't know. If I knew, I could do something about it. But I don't, so I can't. I can feel sooo bad about my art, but it's even worse when I see other people's art, compare it, see all the mistakes I make time after time, see everything I could be better at - but am not - and the list goes on and on.
It's okay to be somewhat critical about your own art. Healthy amount of critical. But I realize I'm not in the healthy zone. And I can't find any way out. Even if I banged my head against the wall, it seems like I'm not able to get rid of those thoughts and feelings, that I'm worse at this than everyone else.
As this art block continues, the less I draw, and the worse I become at drawing, and it's an ongoing circle. I feel right now that it's been going on for too long, and maybe I've lost my chance to progress at the pace I'd like to. And that eats my inspiration even more. Why even try, when I still can't beat the artist I could be, had it not been for this art block... Sounds a bit twisted.
I might gain my confidence back in a few days, a month, or a year. It doesn't matter. I just wanted to blabber a bit and share my thoughts about this shitty situation of mine. But now, moving on to cheerier topics.
Overwaaaaaaatch
Yes. This I'm excited about. I've been playing OW pretty much non-stop for a little over a month now, and I can't get enough of it. (I'm currently on level 106...) So, I thought it would be cool to ask you guys if you played it, and maybe if you'd like to play with me? I have only few IRL-friends who play OW, and it's much more fun with friends and a team that doesn't change every game. (And the arcade and especially the brawls, how I enjoy them...)
I don't main any particular hero, but I enjoy playing Widowmaker, Pharah, Junkrat, D.Va and Mercy, and I'm constantly learning new heroes and enjoying them more and more as I play them. I think I could say that I'm comfortable with almost any hero (except for Zarya, I can't handle her at all for some reason). I like those accidental "scoped" headshots with Widowmaker, they're the shit I live for right now.
A thing, concerning both OW and art. I'd looove to draw fanart of every god damn hero there is, just for now I can't draw anything. But when I can, I promise to make art about this game and it's awesome heroes. So, feel free to suggest in the comments what heroes you'd like to see art of! :>
I could go on and on about OW, but time's running out and I blabbered way too much above there (but still probably forgot everything important I was going to say, ugh), so I'm going to cut this here.
AND; If you play, who do you main, who do you like, why? Could we play together? Let me know, let me discuss this game with youuu!
That's all for now! Thanks if you made it this far! Byeee
- Foxie <3
Quote of the day
The true work of art is but a shadow of the divine perfection.
- Michelangelo
